aiman oh aiman.

aiman got a fever.as a good (so called) sister,I called mom asked about him.got a chance to talk with him who skipped his class for 2 days fewwww!

aiman:kak yang,tadi orang pergi TF dengan mak.

kakak baik:so?

aiman:orang jumpa cashier muka macam (nama kawan baik).

kakak baik:hah?

aiman:orang cakap dekat mak.mak pun cakap ye.pastu mak cakap nanti suruh kamu pergi TF.

kakak baik: =.= (parah betul mereka berdua yang se-kroni ni)

kita nak bertanya khabar dia,dia pulak pergi bertanya khabar orang lain.kenapa tak mau tanya:

"kak yang kamu dah makan?kamu jumpa ayam tak?kamu masih gemuk lagi tak,kalau dah kurus nanti orang belanja chicken chop restoran adik wa."

sejuk hati kalau ada adik macam tu.ok dah habis membebel.

everyone has a dark side.

title macam caption Dr Hyde and Mr Jeckyl.gabra nak tulis.

dont worry.i wont write about how good or how bad (intended) the exam was.nothing can change the fact now.even if time turns back and give me the same opportunity to seat for the papers,it wont change much.

something to ponder.

is it worth our hard (so called) effort for these exam weeks compared to if I'm able to be a pulun hardworking student from the earlyyyy semester?poke ownself.

we always repeat on the same thing.that Allah will always look at our effort and not the result of it because He definitely certain on how will it be.Maha Baik Allah.naah.but I choose to blame myself for wasting my time hanging around tak tentu hala bersuka-ria menghabiskan duit ke sana sini untuk MAKAN instead of being able to put much concentration to my study earlyyyyy .regardless the fact that you know this semester is going to be a tough one and you ignore it macam angin lalu.

believe too much on your capability konon?dont believe yourself anymore.

because,the night before I went to the exam hall this morning,I felt so nervous.suddenly the feeling came.like a desert storm.marvelous punya feeling.malam-malam exam la kau nak menjelma.kenapa bukan malam hari 1st day kau apply nak masuk degree L**.kenapa kenapa?

because I am a woman (fuuuuh),I always fail to handle the emotional part.the nervous feeling need to be neutralize with the calmness.so I choose to call my dear dear dear KBS (kawan baik selamanya),miss exaggerate calm to seek for some of her sweet calmness,to ask the emotional part not to intervene into my mind territory.

nah,the conversation goes goes and goes.until she said;

"yang ni dah final semester punya final kan.should be nothing to worry *insert smiley* " (modification)

silent.

2 seconds jeee.

yes,it made sense.why should I oh why should I being worried to that extent until not able to remember so many facts that I should memorize.

sila kembali ke alam nyata pulang ke pangkal jalan dan berhenti dari hidup di dunia Alice.

terus tukar topik and asked her whether she has take her meals,hows her job today,bla bla bla.

we are in the same age but I think I should learn soo many things about life from her.especially the maturity part.and the knowledge part.and the barakah part.and the planning of life part.and the tarbiyah part.and the maintenance of fund part.and the motivation in life part.and the ukhwah part.and seeking for Allah bless part.and many many many other part of the world.

Allah gives me a lesson that night.that life will not goes well if you're not prepared enough.mentally and physically.so sweet of Him.that we can learn something from the exam week.not just that we gain His knowledge.we're able to learn on how to face life too.

how compang-camping I am ;(

and I need to put a reminder to my habuk otak,

I need to change.

I need to change.

I need to change.

change for good.

minimize the lagha part.minimize the uncertain things in life.minimize fighting and pukul others (this specially dedicated to Lululala).so I seek for forgiveness to all of you my dear friends.maybe too many sins that I've done made my heart turn into dark colour.

I need to grow.

I need to live for Allah.

I need to be a big big big woman (bukan gemuk).

so many things to be restructured,modified and to take corrective measures.

ready to go?

in the line.

shoot!