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Hai,I'm Naruto's GF,wowee!
But,that's not the point.I've met the deputy dean this morning.She asked me to prepare a letter of withdrawal under mobility programme to Hiroshima.Believe me,it's not an easy decision.I saw a little frustrated face there.I tried to give my very best ever cherish smile to her & spoke politely.Hope that she will understand.
I went to class,with some burden to bear.Forgive me heart,I know you do really want to go there.But,lets put the other priority first.Forgive me heart.My buddy sat beside me,heard all of those feeling.Paling tak boleh lupa when she gave me support to continue my plan besides want to provide some advanced money.Whoa!I knew she loves to spend most of her scholarship for the emergency use.But I dont think this is the best for her to spend her savings.Besides,money is not the major problem for me.My focus in the class was not 100% anymore.Perasaan bertimpa-timpa,oh.
Lunch hour,we went to Cafe.Another deputy dean came towards me.He still recognized me even I've only met him a few times before for the EnLAC programme.I waved at him also with my best ever cherish smile."Saya dimaklumkan awak tarik diri?Kenapa?"Another frustrated face there.Even the staff in TNC's office still give chance for me to amend the proposal paper.And it still keep me thinking until this hour.Its hard,its hard!I've to consider my mom's feeling,my class hour that I will miss about a week,my safety there since there's no other Malaysian participants (once I've discussed with Husna about musafir without mahram for women),my project paper(takkan nak tinggal group buat semua),my hostfamily there, and not to forget,the Cambodia trip,insyaAllah.Muslims need you people.
Sometimes,I'm just pondering,"Kenapalah apply dulu,kan dah susah hati."But,it sounds like that I'm not thankful enough for this opportunity,right?Astaghfirullah,forgive me Allah.Redha,silalah menjenguk hati lara ini.Tak mahu jadi putus asa,tak mahu jadi pemberontak.Thanks to all my dear friends for keep praying on me & for the continuous
support.I love you all,fillah!
Saya support kamu dari jauh,kamu?*love in the air*
[Sorry for any grammatical error,saya budak baru belajar]
4 comments:
so it's true that u aren't going? :(
sedih pulak. i see u're so excited with all d Japanese related thingy, bon odori cthnya
xpela. nnt blh pegi honeymoon kt sana dgn ahem kan kan? :D
such a hard decision..no doubt.perhaps something better is waiting 4 u in the future.dont wori babe.Allah kan ade.
its ok my dear maybe this is not ur rezeki...
always remember this,
when one door closes, another opens and in ur case i hope it will be more than just one.
so don't give up and keep looking so long at the closed door.
look at the bright side...
in every cloud there's always a silver lining.
i do hope
the sun is shining for u =)
may Allah bless u my dear~
[cookie] ha,goooodd idea,yeah!thanks for your words ;)
[husena] sejuk hati tiap kali bicara dengan kamu.what a power of a best friend! :D
[anonymous] one more time u dont leave your name.hehe..yeah,indeed,its true.thanks for your du'a,doa secara rahsia dari seorang sahabat insyaAllah makbul & dari sahabat yang rahsia juga harapnya diterima Allah.
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