Pendek.

Assalamualaikum sahabat!

Another fine day today,alhamdulillah.Mom just called me while waiting for my brother to do some stuff in photo shop.She has been infected with flue fever for the past few days.Alhamdulillah,today she's better.As usual,we managed to have time gossiping few things about her adorable granddaughter.

"Mak tau cucu kesayangan mak tu (blablabla)"

"Tau,hari tu Cu dah cerita (blablabla)"

Its a usual dialogues between us since few years back.Okay,tak sah kalau tak bergosip pasal Si Kenit.I'm waiting for Adam to start speak.Maybe he'll be my next Human Target.Haha!Before we end up our conversation,Mom asked me whether I'll be back home in the nearest date.Oh,I'm sorry Mom,if I have a full-lepak weekend time,I will,insyaAllah.But my BNGU (books never give up) is waiting me here.I'll try find the date okay Mak ;) I informed Mom that I'll represent the Faculty insyaAllah in lawn ball tournament next week.So,every evening now is a sport day for me.Sport also is a branch of ibadah,right?Guess what Mom said?

"Tu lah,dari dulu tak nak main,sebab tu tak tinggi-tinggi"
*Ohhhhh?Apakah lawn ball boleh menyumbang ketinggian?*

"Ambuih,Mak ingat kalau Ika (ok,malu nama manja) main bola jaring boleh tinggi la?"

"Yela"

"Abis,mak tak tinggi sangat pun?"
*Mom used to be a netball player during her teen's time.
[Oh,ayat kejam]

And,we laughed together lastly.I remember when I was in standard 1(1 Nilam SKSSU) my height was just about 118 cm.Now,I've attained 149 cm.Not bad kan?Banyak apa dah tambah.Heh!Mom is sooo sweet,sweeter that the sweetest sugar in the world (semut jangan curi Mak saya).No one can replace her.

[Tak aci Mak pakai heels,oh,baju saya tu besar]

Malam ni training,yeah!

Hey,I have a niece & nephew (koya)

I just loooovvveeee my niece & nephew(tambah kasih sayang).My sista has uploaded some of their pictures today and tagged me on FB (double tambah kasih sayang for making me homesick berganda).Alesha has a talent to be an actress as she is so brilliant in bodek-bodek things plus she loves to wear my mum's high heels (haih,saya pun takut terpeleot kan ;p ).I just miss them much muchas sangat over rindu.

Record:Non-stop crying for almost 2 hours,okay,bukan saya buli.

Okay,tak siapa ajar dia posing.

[Other Pictures on FB]

Rindu ini membawa hati pergi.Yet,I still couldn't find myself on the right track.I'm not good enough.Luar gembira,dalam meronta.So,I'm officially withdraw myself for the moment.Oh,sangat low self esteem.Adakah bagus untuk kesihatan remaja berusia 21 tahun?Thank you for making me realize that I am no good.Ok,insaf.Tidur.Classmates,esok family law,a BIG YEAY! Assalamualaikum Mam.Hehe.

Good night!Baca doa & Al-Mulk,Ayat Kursi & (Al-Ikhlas,An-Nas,Al-Falaq*) ;)
*Diriwayatkan Al-Bukhari dalam Fathul Baarri IX/62 dan Muslim IV/1723

Hello Hero.

Forgive me Bro cause keep putting your picture here.Nearly 2 weeks I didn't watch you in TV.I'm sad Bro,I'm sad with myself.Someone,teach me Germany's please,weehoo!For the mean time,jadi hero saya okay(haih,mengarutnya).

Boleh saya jadi piala yang kamu pegang itu?

Please,dont.

Hai,I'm Naruto's GF,wowee!

Presentation case has been postponed to some later date.Should we "Ohhhh,sad" or "Weehooo!".Maybe latter one should prevail ;) I looked at my sisters face right after Mam made the announcement.They're seems happy.Harus-lah kan.Haha.

But,that's not the point.I've met the deputy dean this morning.She asked me to prepare a letter of withdrawal under mobility programme to Hiroshima.Believe me,it's not an easy decision.I saw a little frustrated face there.I tried to give my very best ever cherish smile to her & spoke politely.Hope that she will understand.

I went to class,with some burden to bear.Forgive me heart,I know you do really want to go there.But,lets put the other priority first.Forgive me heart.My buddy sat beside me,heard all of those feeling.Paling tak boleh lupa when she gave me support to continue my plan besides want to provide some advanced money.Whoa!I knew she loves to spend most of her scholarship for the emergency use.But I dont think this is the best for her to spend her savings.Besides,money is not the major problem for me.My focus in the class was not 100% anymore.Perasaan bertimpa-timpa,oh.

Lunch hour,we went to Cafe.Another deputy dean came towards me.He still recognized me even I've only met him a few times before for the EnLAC programme.I waved at him also with my best ever cherish smile."Saya dimaklumkan awak tarik diri?Kenapa?"Another frustrated face there.Even the staff in TNC's office still give chance for me to amend the proposal paper.And it still keep me thinking until this hour.Its hard,its hard!I've to consider my mom's feeling,my class hour that I will miss about a week,my safety there since there's no other Malaysian participants (once I've discussed with Husna about musafir without mahram for women),my project paper(takkan nak tinggal group buat semua),my hostfamily there, and not to forget,the Cambodia trip,insyaAllah.Muslims need you people.

Sometimes,I'm just pondering,"Kenapalah apply dulu,kan dah susah hati."But,it sounds like that I'm not thankful enough for this opportunity,right?Astaghfirullah,forgive me Allah.Redha,silalah menjenguk hati lara ini.Tak mahu jadi putus asa,tak mahu jadi pemberontak.Thanks to all my dear friends for keep praying on me & for the continuous
support.I love you all,fillah!

Saya support kamu dari jauh,kamu?*love in the air*

[Sorry for any grammatical error,saya budak baru belajar]